So it’s official… We’re having a GIRL! All the suspense, the wait… It’s finally over. We saw Gummy for the first time in almost 3 months (through ultrasound, of course). She’s grown a lot and a pretty active girl. I have felt her very few times within the past few weeks moving around my belly, and just last night, have felt her kick 7 or more times. We’re very thrilled, and I can officially say I will have a “Mini Me.”

20 weeks

7 weeks (now you know how we got the name “gummy” )

And just for the record, my current penchant for vanilla milkshake and decaf white mocha latte are out of control!

New year…
New life…
New status…
New hairstyle…
New me

2009 has been a life-changing year for me. It has been somewhat tumultuous in a beautiful sense. Things in my life happened suddenly, unexpectedly, sadly, and wonderfully. Unlike recent years, I have much to look forward to in 2010 and beyond, and I can’t wait what the months ahead will bring.

As far as my pregnancy goes, I’ve just entered my 17th week. SEVENFUCKINGTEEN! My body is ever changing… The belly bulge I’ve been dreading the past few weeks (because it looked more like I ate a whole box of donuts) is now shaping more like a preggo belly. I bought few maternity clothes, 2-up sized bras (my pups are gaining size!), and another belly band within the past couple weeks. The salesgirl at Motherhood treated me like royalty: “I will set up your room, whenever you’re ready!” That’s the way it SHOULD be in any retail clothing store, whether pregnant or not, dammit!!

Still lucky with no morning sickness, but I am definitely feeling more and more pregnant by the week, along with a few symptoms I still have from my first trimester. With that, I have been religiously applying Bio-Oil and/or Palmer’s Cocoa Butter lotion on my belly to prevent stretch marks for the months to come while my tummy continues to grow. Yes, I know stretch marks are genetic or unavoidable, but screw it… I’ll do whatever it takes to at least prevent some stretch marks! But on more exciting news, in exactly 3 weeks from now I will know whether Gummy is a boy or a girl… The wait is so tormenting!!

12 weeks  0 day… 12 week 3 days… Hell, I don’t even know anymore. But one thing is for damn sure, I’m feeling pretty pregnant lately. Pressure on my lower abdomen means gummy (a nickname Jamie and I have stapled our baby) is growing at an alarming rate and my belly is expanding by the week. And at today’s doctor visit, we had the yummiest, amazing pleasure of hearing gummy’s heartbeat for the first time. It was just as emotional as the first time we saw gummy during our 2 ultrasound sessions… Quite unreal. It’s so much easier to beam about gummy now that we’ve broke the news.

Life these days are all about prenatal vitamins, belly bands, getting enough rest, and the holy bible of pregnancy (“What to Expect When You’re Expecting,” thanks to my sister!). But as my pre-preggo body is continually expanding, the strong urge to shop for new clothes at my favorite stores must temporarily come to a halt. At times, I feel like Michael Jackson in the beginning of the Thriller video when he was painfully transforming into a werewolf… You’d have to be female and pregnant to understand some of these growing pains!

Anyways, it’s already December… Where did time go?? This will be the first Xmas ever that I will not be with family, but first ever Xmas with my honeybunz.  I’m so bad with the holidays, I haven’t done much Xmas shopping yet. That may change tomorrow!

Current Mood: Esctatic & Happy & Overwhelmed & Tired

I knew I wanted to be a mommy someday… I just didn’t think it would be now. Yep, I said it… I’M PREGGO! 10 weeks to be exact. I found out, quite unexpectedly, 4 weeks into my pregnancy.

When Jamie and I found out, my mind went 10,000 mph
- I’m going to be a mommy!
- Am I going to be a good mommy?
- This wasn’t supposed to happen NOW!
- A baby is growing inside me!
- Can’t wait to tell everybody
- How will everybody react?
- STRETCH MARKS… GAH!!
- Is it a boy?
- Is it a girl?
- Is it ok to eat this or that?
And I’m pretty sure there are 1000 more inner thoughts I can’t remember right now. Overall, I am happy, excited, nervous, overwhelmed, scared. Jamie was also happy, but very calm, and did a great job at calming my nervous butt down hehe. I got over the initial shock, eventually.

One of the most difficult thing to do after finding out was that I had to sacrifice a lot of my favorite consumptions, like switching from a grande mocha to a tall decaf, cutting down or eliminate chocolate completely (which include chocolate chip cookie or a friggin’ brownie!), no sushi, and no evening pints and Malibu Bay Breezes with my honeybunz for the next several months. That is fine with me. The sacrifice I’ve made to keep my Mini Me (or Jamie Jr.) healthy is so worth it. My pregnancy also stood as top motivation to finally kick my nicotine habit (almost 7 weeks and counting). Throughout my on-going battle to quit smoking, being pregnant made it easy to quit because my mind is constantly worrying about my pregnancy. So, YAY!

I was surprised that Jamie and I were able to keep this a secret to almost everyone for over a month. But, that is where my life is at right now, and it will change dramatically in the course of 7 months. Guess I’ll have to enjoy my solitude and new found 8+ hours of sleep as much as I can before the 7 months are over. Not that sleep deprivation is anything new to me… Overall, I’m very excited in becoming a first time mom.

Anyone who knows me will know that Alice in Chains was and will always be one my favorite bands, and biggest musical influences. What is not to like? Layne Staley’s vocals, Jerry Cantrell’s wonderful guitar work and songwriting, and the bands sludgy/haunting/melodic tunes. They have been one of those bands that made me think “Damn, why didn’t I think to write a song like that?!”

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